Ouch

This past week has been a tough one in the adoption process. We've been up for two different infants and were denied parenthood both times. I don't think people always understand how much pain is involved in this whole process. Yes, there are emotional pains. Those are the pains that happen when you don't know how to comfort your spouse, the pains that haunt you in your dreams, the pains that occur in your everyday life when you see parents who aren't treating their children with the love and respect they deserve... The physical pains are there too though: migraines, literal heartaches, an unusual obsession with the pains of even one's monthly cycle... they are directly related to this whole thing.

I'm glad we have the strength from family and friends. I would have given up hope a long time ago without their prayers and love. Someday, the right child will be placed into our arms. In the meantime, there is heartache.